I find it hard to get over the idea in my head that every blog post needs to be really valuable to other people. I’m not yet comfortable with the balance of writing for myself versus writing what other people would find valuable.
– Hiten Shah

This is how I’m feeling now.

I wrote a draft on the train to London. It is about the passing of our first Prime Minister, Lee Kuan Yew. It started out as an article to encourage people to look at the positive side of things. Eventually, it turned into more of a rally to get people to do something for our country, Singapore.

I showed it to my girlfriend as I was hesitant to post it. She gave me good feedback but I eventually decided not to post it. I think it’s quite horrible.

As I didn’t want to break the promise of blogging everyday, I kept thinking about what to write throughout the day.

Despite that, nothing came to my mind. Well, I have many ideas on what to write. I thought of the titles but I just didn’t know what to write. I guess this is writer’s block.

Nevertheless, I’m writing now.

I’m pretty sure this post wouldn’t make much sense; but I just want to write it as a reminder for myself that there are days like these, when I’m stuck, when I’m not sure what to do.

But this will pass. And it doesn’t matter.

I’m reminded of a post by Leo Widrich, Days When You Suck:

It doesn’t matter

Joel, the awesome guy I am working together with says: These days don’t matter.

And they don’t. What matters is the consistency. It matters that you get up every day and enjoy building this thing which will make other people’s lives a bit easier and solve some pains.

If you have a few of these days, so what? I learnt that I am far better off to admit it to myself, take the day off or do whatever it takes to suck less again.

Today is that kind of day for me. I’ll be back tomorrow.

(This is my 15th blog post of my 30in30 challenge — 30 blog posts in 30 days. Through this challenge, I hope to feel comfortable and more confident with writing and become better at writing.)